So, I take part in a project; meet someone at their event; meet their wife, family, friends, previous tutor; read their book; and then they die just 3 weeks later.
The libraries and museums still stand, everything is the same.
Is it horrifying or reassuring?
Is it anything at all?
I sent a beautiful card with 2 birds on a branch which would have reached them both before he died, before they were parted.
I consider being searched by eyesight across a room.
Will I do that to people, staring openly, with eyes like dinner plates, when I am older?