3am phone call

Yes, exactly! That's what I thought. Is my father dead? Has my mother died? Has S's plane fallen out of the sky on the way back from Beijing to Heathrow.

I got there in time to hear the message, a contact in Beijing was calling S's home phone here, instead of his local contact number there. Nothing unusual at all. Phew. Back to my duvet and back to sleep.

Saving a life

A bee was in a bad way on our drawing room floor. It moved a bit when I touched it. I opened the door to the garden, so I could carry it straight out there. I picked a leaf to be its stretcher. I shunted it onto the leaf, which it promptly crawled around. I thought it might fall straight off again, but I twirled the leaf to keep it on the top side. Then I put the leaf, plus furry patient, onto the bluebell leaves. It moved surprisingly fast into the undergrowth.

I wonder whether it was aware of being saved? I only did my bit, I couldn't move any of its legs for it or know where to go. It was doing all the work of being a bee, apart from my moving it from the human drawing room it had got lost in. If I hadn't seen it and tried to pick it up, it would have just died there later on.

Life is so dependent on others' actions and on pure chance.

"All the feels"

It's a new phrase T told me about just now. It means that all emotions are happening all at once. Overload. Confusion. Multi-channelled brain events. Multi-tasking, but not in a good way!

A few days ago I did a piece of writing which I might or might not share at the writing group I am trying. I entitled it: 'My Nameless/Formless Feelings'. I was happier once I had written that title. The writing is rather waffly, but the title is great.

Anyway, I have cancelled my planned one day trip tomorrow to see my parents because of my sore throat and huge sleepiness, 6 hours under the duvet on the sofa today. There was a rib pain whenever I breathed in, but that has gone now.

Identifying people in a village

Well, this is even more simple, you describe and or name their dog or cat, then it's perfectly clear who you are talking about!

On a walk I will notice and recognise the dog first, then I'll look carefully to see which human they have with them.

On the road it's a case of spot the car/recognise part of the registration number, then peer into the semi darkness to see who's driving it and wave. Or, brake and pull over because there is a huge tractor coming, then wave on the basis that it might be so-and-so inside, but it's too high up to actually see for certain.

The other trick is to stop in the middle of the road, open the window and you both have a catch up chat as the driver's seats are conveniently placed so you can do this. I do this one when someone has moved and it's the first time I have seen them for a while.