Thursday, 7 May 2009

Am I gloomy or cheerful?

I just can't tell today. H and I went for 20 minutes to a home ed meetup. We sat in the car as this was the extent of the participation he was ok about and had agreed on yesterday. I used my mobile to check the exact start time.

So there we sat in my car in the car park. I had a ball game with me so we played catch between the front seats. It was surprisingly fun. I escaped several times to go to the loo, speak to 3 adults and one boy I know already. H spoke to no one apart from me. He smiled a lot and said he enjoyed the 'picnic in a car'. I enjoyed the breeze, leaning against the car to eat my sandwich. It was like the old couples sitting in their cars by the beach. I've always thought how peaceful they look, all snug with mugs of hot tea!

The difference between this and what I would want is enormous. Why won't H engage with the activities, the other children, the adults? He is such good fun to debate things with. So I am gloomy and cheerful at the same time.


  1. "The difference between this and what I would want is enormous"

    I can empathise completely and I think you are just a brilliant Mum for providing "the picnic in the car"((hugs))xxx

  2. My children won't either. I had a referral to SS cos of them not socialising:( I am the most outgoing person you could meet but I live my life through internet. It is hard.


  3. I'm glad I'm not alone!

    It was a nice outing in a way and H had such a lovely smile on his face. I think it was because he could trust me to drive back home after the 20 mins. Normally I'd be badgering him to stay longer and longer. Trust is key.

    Of course, including the drive, the whole trip was 1 1/2 hours. So time to chat on the way back about how radio stations got their money...etc etc.


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