"This is what I can't tell you"
"This is what I remember"
"One evening this happened"
"I don't want to write this, but"
"This is why I didn't come to London for that family party"
"What the (different) hell?!"
"What fresh hell is this?!"
"When I said I was fine, what I could have said was.."
"If you'd listened and waited, then listened some more, I might, just might have told you that.."
"Even now I don't want to look back and write about this"
"I worry I might forget what happened, even though I have spent 5 years not talking about it to anyone, apart from short glimpses, more to silence and stun the other person, shut them up"
"When I have talked about this to professionals in the past the other person would give me 'the look', the one that says 'I am out of my depth. I am scared. I can't hear what this mother is starting to tell me.'"
A different set of Umm Kulthum songs, more delicate, more beautiful. The first set are no longer available on YouTube. http://umkolthoum.blogspot.co.uk/