Or in more polite language, my 'get up and go' got up and went some time ago and has not found its way back to me.
Is there some spiritual term for the time of waiting for whatever it is to come along? I'm busy doing somewhat pointless waiting. I hope there is some parenting value in it for the boys.
Anyway, I know it is not my fault and will move along in its own good time. Maybe this is how the land feels as weather systems pass over it season after season.